I could go on go on go on
like this forever and ever and ever and ever. I am so fortunate to have what I have and miss what I don’t. Sorry, for being all cryptic here because I don’t want to get into it and feel better for maybe like say, 10 seconds but following that few sacred moments of peace, face having to explain myself and my inner thoughts which are at most times very random and baffling, even to me. ...
What can I say
the acceptance of rejection (pun not intended) gets easier and easier with practice. Now it’s the 2 big ivies -..- I guess I should have given it more thought. Jules pointed out that since the intake of these liberal art colleges are all 400 and downward and the number of applicants is no different from other universities, it’s going to be one harsh vetting process. Didn’t...
I'm reaaaaaally hungry now
Craving for tau huey and sandwiches. Ok on to things that matter (geez), spoke to Jules for 2 hours while sniffing the entire time… Things can’t get any messier, so just chin up and it’ll always turn out fine. You realise how people who have faith and who take that quantum leap almost never regret that decision? Yup, it might have stood for everything and thus seem foolhardy in...
Damn my immune system
it’s been getting weaker with every bout of sickness. Germs germs go away. I’m going to bed real early, and pray that my plans tomorrow won’t be cancelled too.
So thunder really does roll
I want to forget I’m sick and just run in the rain.
Pizza party, movie night
Today I realized why everyone says I’m lucky to have parents as loving as mine. Since my mom has been back from the hospital, my dad has been there for her every step of the way. He walks down and up three flights of stairs just to get her a glass of water. He makes sure the pillows are plumped up so she will be comfortable. He stretches over the table to make sure the pen is in the holder...
Woke up to
another rejection letter by Amherst. 3 rejections, 1 acceptance. F
REJECTION REJECTION REJECTION
I can’t deal with rejection, and right now, the count is at 2. If it fucking climbs any higher… I’m going to put it up here even though I know I’d regret it the instant it’s up. I got rejected by Haverford. I’m trying to be more open and honest with everyone, myself included and I’m not going to go back to being the dilatory person I am by backspacing...
GOT A VET INTERNSHIP!!!
and screw the sham company that can’t spell ‘development’. I’m going to shower and lie in bed now- I need to fight insomnia.
fmylife: Today, I set one of my old baby pictures as my profile picture on Facebook. Minutes later my husband commented on it. He said, “I don’t think we should have kids.” FML